In most cases, when we are faced with a crisis, we begin looking for power outside of ourselves. We want someone to fix our issues — at once — and to do so without any effort required on our part.
This is not a good or a bad thing, this is our instincts kicking in, our survival mechanisms, and our true beliefs laid bare by the extraordinary circumstances.
What we often fail to realize, however, is that a crisis is actually a gateway into our OWN power, our OWN spiritual awakening, and the ascension of our soul. We simply don’t have the capacity to see this yet. We want to solve a situation, get back what we think we lost, and continue living as we always have.
The crisis that changes our lives and our souls may begin with a new gift or ability, such as the seeming capacity to attract money, relationships, or having discovered a spiritual gift. At one point, this gift is taken away, because it was only there as a “bait” from the universe, and this taking away (of what was actually not ours in the first place) is an opportunity to shake us out of our content slumber and automated existence.
When we can no longer attract the money we want, when the relationship with “the One” fails, when we no longer have the spiritual gifts or beliefs we were so proud of, all we can think about, all we are capable of wanting is to get it back, to grab and hold on to it and to make it comply with the world that we know.
The problem is, this “loss” is actually happening to show us the illusory nature of the world that we know. This “loss” is just an old script playing out. But because our ego is attached to that script and tied up with it, through its identification with our primary wound, it perceives the dissolution of this illusion as death. The pain of the loss is devastating. It feels like being operated on without anesthesia.
Nothing is left unturned in our quest for healing, for finding ways to stop this pain.
We may begin by blaming the Other, by looking for a culprit, someone who cursed us or wished us ill, blaming the woman who stole the love of our life, the evil boss, the wrong friends, the customers, the government, we may revel in the multitude of conspiracy theories. We may start off trying to get revenge, looking for a magic fix, or trying to numb the pain through addictions. The process can take years, or even lifetimes.
When none of the blaming seems to work, we may begin on the more productive path of working on ourselves. More often, because we don’t as yet realize that the only way to effect real change is to change ourselves, we will start looking for someone or something who can give us our power back. A psychic, a teacher, a healer, God, a group, a secret society, a particular practice or practices. But this step is important, because it is the beginning of finding our own personal power.
In the end, our path will lead us to a higher vantage point, where we will begin working on our own personal power. And on the way, there is no such thing as a wrong path…
